Idahoooooo!

So I'm leaving for Idaho at 0600hrs tomorrow morning. How much fun, right?
My church (Church of God of Prophecy) is worldwide, and every two years, we have a regional convention, and I get to go this time! :D
It's even more exciting, because I'm going to be appointed to State Youth Director. So basically, I plan state-wide youth activities, youth retreats, etc., and I get to visit all of the youth groups. Pumped!

So Mallory, Sheri, Kyle, my mom and I will be leaving in the wee hours of the morning to drive about ten hours to Boise, Idaho.

Oh and btw, I'm not even packed yet. :)

Summer, cats and books...

It seriously feels like forever since I've blogged.

If three months is forever, then I guess it has been.

Summer is finally here, and I don't think I'm as pumped as I should be. I LOVE summer, but it doesn't really feel like summer to me. I guess life has changed too much this past year for it to feel the same. When a person goes through life altering changes, their life can't go back to where it was.

I've already lost all the momentum of this blog and have a lack of words.

That seems to happen to me.

I thought if I had a blog, maybe I would have important and thought-provoking things to say, but I suppose it doesn't work that way.

I only know five or six people on this blogspot anyhow; I don't think anybody really reads this.

My cat, Margaret, had kittens about four weeks ago, so if anyone would like a kitten, let me know; they're free. I love them. They are adorable. They really brighten my world.

It's been a year now since I graduated high school. It feels like ages. I think everything feels like longer than it is. I kind of would like to go for a bike ride, but I'll probably just go to bed and read.

Speaking of reading, I've been reading some really good books lately, and I think I'm going to start a new book review blog, so if you're looking for some good books, let me know.

If anyone reads this, feel free to talk to me.

But I don't want to sound desperate.

Life and the Places We Go

I can see where I want my life to go, it's just a really rocky road.

There's just so much I want to do, I don't think one life can fit it all.

I have a wonderful boyfriend and great friends, but I've lost so many.

I want to be a math teacher, but I want to act, on stage, forever.

I want to have kids right now, but I'm not ready to get married.

I want to spend a year in Africa, but I don't want to leave what I have here.

I want to be able to be upstairs during church, but I can't abandon the kids I teach downstairs.

I honestly don't ever want to leave my church, my home, but I want to get out of here and travel.

I want to speak my mind and know what my mind wants to speak, but I don't want to offend or hurt.

What to do? What to do?

I was going to put a nice, little, fancy math thing on here for you, but I don't know how to make the square root symbol on the interwebz.

I love math.

And I love you.

This is the end.

So I noticed only one person noticed my poll. Haha.
And that one person, whoever you may be, wants me to write about boys.
So for that one person, for myself, and for Spencer, who will probably never see this...


[It's much better with music, but it's difficult to portray that through a blog.]

Don't tell me that you love me;
Don't tell me that you care.
All of your lying
Is far too much to bear.

I am never good enough for you
I am never good enough for you


Don't worry about me,
I am doing fine!
Just keep on living life,
And I'll keep living mine.

I was never good enough for you
I was never good enough for you


You were the only one who understood.
I wanted others to, but only you could.
And because you knew everything from the start,
You knew the perfect way to break my heart.


Someday you'll see that we
Were perfect for each other,
But when that day comes,
I will have another.

You'll come begging
On hands and knees.
Don't you forget
To say pretty please.

Not that it matters much.
I know who you are.
You are nothing more
Than a liar.

You will never be good enough for me
You will never be good enough for me


You've said it once; you've said it twice;
You've said it many times.
This is the end. This is the end.
This is the end.




Despite all your lying,
Despite all the pain.
I know anyone,
Good or bad, can change.

So I'll be here waiting,
Silently.
If you ever want
To come back to me.

I know you have said,
That this is the end.
But maybe someday
We could be friends.

Golly gee.

"I want to drink milk that's straight from the cow..."

Thanks Mallory. That was hilarious.
So currently Mallory's sitting next to me eating the ice cream cake they bought me,
and William and Jordan are in the kitchen making Yerba Mate. Jordan's obsessed. >.>

I've been really tired lately. Like really. Like I can't hardly keep my eyes open most of the time. And yet here I sit. I got back from taking Taylour home around 2145, and my mother, Mallory and William were watching home videos from when I was tiny. Normally a teenager would be at least a little embarrrassed, but no. I was really freaking cute. Still am. Why would I be embarrassed?

Anyhow it's ten minutes till 0100hrs, and we're still up. But I shouldn't be.
But we're going to watch Mr. Deeds, so...

That's why I'm awake.
Bah.

It's been so long since I've blogged, but they started Mr. Deeds, so...
I can't pay attention long enough to type.

So there.
Deal with it.

TRP<3

Golly gee it's been too long. :)
This past two weeks has been quite an exciting turn of events.

Boys. Are. Dumb.
After a long, difficult relationship, and a long, difficult ending to a relationship, I decided I was done with males for some time. Sure, they know how to make you feel good, but is it really worth it in the end? Who knows? Nobody does, which is why we continue with our giant game of trial and error. It doesn't just apply to math, you know.

So what happens when Sammy decides she's done with boys? ... Of course! Boys come flocking to her. >.>
Michael Perez, nice young man- complete opposite. So why is he interested in me? Well it doesn't matter, because I told him I didn't want anything to do with any boy past friendship. Yet he still wants me. I'd rather chase turkeys. ;)
Jacob A.K.A "J-Z"? It was only the second time of seeing him my entire life. We have friends who are friends with each other. And we all went to the Metz Hill Haunted Barn. Ooooh scary...not. There just happened to be an annoying girl with us that had a crush on him, soo...we thought we would get rid of her by causing a little jealousy. Little did I know, that flirting and hand holding was a little more than spawning the little green monster. Later that night, he asked me if I was single. And I responded with a "yes, but not available".
Caleb Bryant. Ohh you. We are buddies, no big deal. I've always known he had a little something for me, so I wasn't really surprised when he asked me out one night. Well I told him maybe we could go on one date or something, BUT a few days later I heard that he only asked me out so we could make out! Definately a big N-O now.
This boy. For your sake, I won't spill your name. But you are very obvious. Just come out and admit it. Doesn't matter anyhow because...
Taylor Perkinson. I've known you since you started high school. "Harry the Horse". You were always just one of my boys. (That I apparently corrupt. :)) But something happened this year. Perhaps that night we first really looked each other in the eye. "Take her by the soft white shoulders..." :) Rehearsals will never be the same. October 31st, just talking to you made me so incredibly happy. And from there the spark turned into a flame, and it's always growing. :)
We may never know how this happened, but I'm very happy it did.<3

Oh you

You shouldn't be so positive

You never stood a chance

I have high expectations

You can't dance my dance